He said it hurts when he writes
But with all the dimmed light
My sun manages to break through.
Hold up, right there.
I think it hurts a little less now,
I think it reaves me quite gently now.
Do I still get to say your name in full sentences?
I think it dries my throat a lot more now,
I think it's leaving me mild now.
Will you name me after one of your stars?
I think you should dry your eyes now.
I'm saying pray to my God, and climb the roofs of our unrepented sins.
Steady as an ocean, and wild as a whisper
I'm saying howl no more.
I think I should give you up now
I think I should hand you over.
Do you still believe I'm heaven-sent?
I'm saying take care now
Lover, I'm saying you need to take care
For I can't afford it, and you should take good care now.
She asked if I was okay
quote that in uppercase, and a question mark.
Mother, I
lost the love I had in me
I left a hole within a howl.
Said I should stop being selfish,
get caffeine out of my system
or get me out of yours.
I'm saying stop pouring vodka on your wounds
or ask me to shut them back
because when I asked you to take care
I meant that bad habits are very hard to cut back on
and I bet your psychiatrist told you so
but I still hide that bottle of antidepressants in my drawer
just in case you know that it hurts a little less now.
My English teacher said that no complexion is gold
When Shakespeare was reminiscing about his own summer sky
But he doesn't know what you look like
When the sirens are quiet
And the lights are off.
I'm saying you should turn the lights on now because there are so many colors that you could be
And Blue is not one of them.
I think I love you when I think you're gold
But when your skies are grey
I paint over you
Color after another
After another
After no other.
I think this is when I knew that I love carrying you around as my art
But I am no artist
Only a paradox.
I'm saying take care now
really good fucking care
because neither one of us understood what it's like
to hold onto oneself.
And if I were to see you again,
I would turn my back
Before I break yours.
So I'm saying take care now
and let the wind pull us apart.
