Shut my eyes
Clear my head
Stop my heart
I'm better off dead" he says as he swallows a pill.
"Dear lord,I surely do not deserve
Every breath I waste
Every word I utter
Death is all I taste
Nobody will even bother" Another pill is swallowed with crying eyes softly closing. How can suicide sound so peaceful when there's a war raging inside?
"Lord,
The seven seas will not shake
Humans' hearts will not break
Everyone will grieve
And then wake
Without the thought of me crossing their minds
Oh, that, I truly believe."
"Oh lord,
I prayed and prayed
You listened
I never healed
I never healed
I never healed
Mighty lord,
Forgive my selfishness," now it's four pills at a time.
"But," His body feels a little cold.
"I am so strong
And suicide is an act of strength
Some days I would measure my body length
And see how small I am walking among
Big, big, people who somehow belong
Unlike...me." another four pills shoved down his throat.
"Lord,
On the nights I had pills as a company
And knives knocking softly upon my skin
You were watching when I shouted at you to take me
You were watching when all the hate spread within"
"Take my life away
In the light of day" and Lord did listen this time.
