It's alright, ma.

The pills will be out of my system later

But you won't

You won't.

I wish I loved myself enough

To not die for you

But it's alright, ma.

I'll rise again, some other time.

I'll live.

It's alright, ma.

The blood and the vomit

I can wash them all away.

I will rinse myself in sunshine

I will bathe in all the things you never told me about

I am not entirely sober

But it's always alright, ma.

You've raised me

And I am quickly falling apart.

But don't you think I will stay in pieces.

I hold myself together

Better than any person can.

I paint my own skies

I paint my own body

I become colors that don't fade

I burst with life

Even after I've lost parts of me.

I am still here. Complete. Content. Completely content.

.And I'll live