It feels like I'm drowning in a sea of fatigue I, and only I, had created. You will most likely feel the utter cold if you touch the water with your fingertips. Drowning, it's not as peaceful as they make it look like in movies. It's not beautiful and you don't placidly drown in slow motion because the water violently steals your every breath while you fight for one, your whole body tingles, and then you start to suffocate. The only beautiful thing about drowning is that once you drown, your body is somehow set free, I haven't reached that part...yet. After that, you're no longer a part of the physical world, you're no longer going to inhale and exhale. The worst part is, it all happened because of you, you're the one who let yourself drown in the first place but you can't be blamed, the world can sometimes get too monstrous and too bitter.